The second half of my birthday spread reflection! Last past was about what was inside of me and what it looks like for the next year. This post is about the outside aspects of my life and what it may look like for the next year.
I am using the Emerald Lotus Divination spread for this reflection. The cards are usually in a line, but to get them all into the shot without it being to far away, I had to make two lines.
Family: NINE OF SWORDS
→ mental stress, insomnia, worry, guilt, anguish
This card with this intention makes me sad and nervous, which kind of is the heart of the card, huh? I've never had the best relationship with most of my family. I've cut off a lot of my family, and only speak to my mother and (maternal) grandmother once a month or so. It makes me worried about their health (which isn't great to begin with), but it also makes me worried about the feelings of my estranged siblings and father.
Maybe I should do a whole journal entry about my relationship with my family - it would be a therapeutic session.
Friendships: KING OF SWORDS
→ clearing mental fog, lofty ideals, ethics, articulate
One of my goals for this next year is to grow some true friendships. I am very isolated right now, through the issue of mental health and my own fear of rejection. Still, I have high hopes and think I can open myself up to create these relationships. It's part of the reason we are making a new start, and this gives me hope that it is possible.
Romantic Relationships: QUEEN OF SWORDS
→ logical approach, straightforward, truthful, witty, experienced
This has a positive connotation, I think? Our eleventh anniversary is in June, so maybe my romantic relationship is working well and will continue to work well. By being truthful, having fun, and communicating logically, we can keep making our relationship work. Just like the card, I think this is pretty straightforward.
Health: PAGE OF PENTACLES
→ practicality, focus, proving yourself, new opportunity, affective
I've been recently thinking about getting tested for Autism. I'm connecting with card and it's message to researching and exploring this topic. I need to remember to be practical and using the right kind of research, as I am not an expert. I know I have the symptoms, but it could be something else. Maybe this also relates to my physical health, which is as up and down as my mental health. It's all working together though, so we'll see what happens.
Finances: FOUR OF SWORDS
→ finding peace, healing, stillness, contemplation, rest
There has been a lot of financial stress over the last year, especially these past few months. I'm hoping this is a good sign. A sign my finances and my situation will calm down and give me time to relax and enjoy a moment of peace as I get settled into my new city and job. Honestly, even the thought of doing that makes me tense, as it never seems to happen.
Career: EIGHT OF SWORDS
→ limitation, isolation, being controlled, losing your power, confusion
This card also has me nervous, as this is not the idea I want associated with my career. I know, as an early childhood educator, there is a lot of limits I have, a lot of stress, that comes with my job. I understand there are some things I have no control over, but I hope this is the situations, not the over-arching time. I have also been thinking about my choice in career, and maybe moving to a different branch of the early education field.
Travel: THE HANGED ONE
→ release, new perspective, forgiveness, relinquishing control, letting go
The travel that is coming up certainly has the purpose of the messages of the card. I am moving to a different state and city to let go and start a new chapter. In relation to literal travel, I am not driving anymore, so this makes me feel hopeful my transition to using pubic transport is a good idea. If it relates to traveling and vacation, it would be nice to be able to do that more.
Positive vibes to everyone!
Tabitha
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